okay its all coming together,
in my head at any rate
ive long suspected that my thinking is too fragmented to plunge forward in any one direction for any concievable length of time
i may be too distracted by shiny bits of paper
or just as my thinking evolves, my direction changes
or i just get bored with rehashing the old
and prefer to make new hash
ive talked my way into a brunch
every week
which should take alot of my creative energy
im really enjoying the singing, but the rough edged fraud act is getting old
i need to polish and perfect
or just mave along
im torn
the stage and the laughter feed the ego
but my ego has already eaten enough
its time to starve the sonuvabitch
too much ego is the problem in the world
as a vehicle for fun i can continue, but it aint about me
im just a dude with word diarrhea
im thankful to the musicians and their hours of practice
and to the gracious host
but its about the fun you can have with words and singing and friends,
nothing else
so i gotta do dome deep thinking about this brunch thing
id loke to let the clown out of the box
but when its time to put him back he turns nasty
hes a whore for the spotlight
ive been a clown for cash before
it comes naturally
so its a fight against my nature to not be a goof
but a fight against my higher aspirations to keep my ego starving
if i can tap the funny bones of strangers, why not?
as long as they understand its somthing that anyone can do
just add a little cannibus
just add a little love
and you can be laughing forever
hell, you might not even need the cannibus after awhile
isnt canabus a great name for a weed themed tour of canada?
someone get marketing on the phone
and get me commercial drivers license
i can drive the bus and give the commentary and if we have a hermetically sealed driving compartment they cant say im too high to drive a busload of stoners on tour thru the hempfields of BC, to the best Blunt and breakfasts in the area
of course the bus is running on french fry oil and doubles as a roving science lab to help kids connect with nature in a fun way.... the hemp tours are a weekend thing for cacdas tourist industry
am i a canadinadian national treasurre yet?
can i move to my island in nova scotia?
or do i need more ideas