im starting my tennis job tomorrow
i may have to quit drinking for a while
not enough time in the day
to do asomething you should do something well
i cant work and work and write and promote and be a drunk
i heroically fought off the hangovers on one job
i dont have the body to fight off a hangover for more than 6 or seven hours a day
certainly not with highschool kids coming after an 8 hour work day
and me having to play a sport with them
after eight hours on my feet
we will be spushing the limits of this body for the next two and a half months
i may need to seroiusly treat this body right
bye by booze
no time for you now!
i got my life to live
tired of my life taking second place on the TO DO LIST

crazy love energy surging thru me
all the darkness in my rearview
this is the highest the roller coaster has ever taken me
ive been amped up for days at a time before
talking way too fast
three four five steps ahead of the conversation
waiting for the world to catch up to my electric thoughts

for days at a time ive done this
and then the crash comes
but this crash is weeks overdue
maybe i turned the corner on the depressed part and now im just manic
or a maniac?

ive found someone that feeds what i need
the gods flesh
the lovestuff
dream enrobed twinkly eyed gorgeousness
her laughter sustains my soul
the taste of her fills my imagination with forever

im grateful to the universe for this gift